Wednesday, December 28, 2005

Realization!!

Bismillah IrREHMAN IrRAHEEM!!

Have you ever at night thought about how many sins today you comitted either by mistake or intentionally? Think about it, since you wake up till you went to bed again, how many of those evil deeds did you commit? You got up in the morning, but did you testify La Illaha Illalah? Did you testify Mohammad Ur RasoolALLAH? As you know how important the both parts of the Kalima-e-Tawheed are, did you remind yourself you are a Muslim? A Muslim who submits? Did you count how many times you looked at namehrams again and again? How many times your voice got up because of anger and how many times you became lazy when it was something concerning deen that rose?
As for me, I know I am one of the worst sinners on the face of this earth. I am a Muslim but many times, due to my own vain desires, I forget, or choose not to submit to the laws of my RABB which are full of hikmah for me. Yes, we are humans and are not 'perfect' but when we commit sins and don't even recognize them as sins, it gets even worse. Why is it so hard to follow our RABB verses following shaitan? How many a times our intention changes even for the good that we do and the evil that we forbid? How easy it is to tell others to follow Islam and do every thing for the sake of ALLAH? Why don't I do it myself too?
Even if we count it this way, that I commit a sin a day, and I get to live 10 more years, can you imagine how many days that would be and how many sins it would come up to? Yet I commit more than one sin a day. When will we understand 'submitting' to the will of ALLAH is far more important than submitting to our own vain desires, and shaitan. Audhobillahi minash shaitain irrajeem!!